Devine Infinitum

June 1 2022 And wasn't mine. I thought momentarily that he was mine. We shared something temporal. The feeling were intense and real. There was excitement and pure lust. And I felt love. He returned just the same. Or i thought he did. Then one day, the façade wear off. His mask revealed. All of a sudden , my world shattered into nothingness. I never had a place in his heart. I never stood a chance in his life. A warrior myself , I fought for something I thought was right. I chose to become numb. I chose to be happy. I chose to be selfish. And embrace the what if's. We made up. We tried and had our fun for a little while. Then that dreadful day came. Finally the playtime was over. I was not successful this time. And accepted my defeat. I was fighter but she had a better chance in winning. Now, is (was) the time to give away something wasn't mine to begin with. I was just a borrower. I had my time with him. There's no going back now. I never felt sorry. I fell in love.  T

 31 May 2022 The moment we were born  and came out in this world.  We have given a face to wear all throughout our earth life.  A tangible face that is shown to the world. It evolves through time but at the end of the day still the same face. But how do we know our TRUE face if the world outside is just a stage. Every time we perform a specific role we wear a different face. This applies to every circumstances we're in, To every people we encounter, To every day that we live our lives. We are different. We are evolving.  We are far from our true IDENTITY. Thus, the question is. Who we really are? Who Am I? Is the person writing and thinking of this the same entity? That I still have to figure out. That's why our life on earth is a journey. It's long sometimes cut short. Predictable yet unpredictable. Life a dilemma itself. Life is consists of polarities. Life and death. Sun and moon. Light and dark. Pain and Joy. Success and failures. Beginning and the end. Sometimes you al