My Life story

 She goes by the name Chekay.

 

Continuation

2024 May 22

 

Hi . My name is Rachelle . Mae .

I am named after the famous biblical character RACHEL the second wife of Jacob and the sister of LEAH though I am not certain if my parents came up with that name from the bible though. The meaning of my name is female EWE which in bible is LAMB a sacrificial LAMB just like what the bible depicted. So from the interpretation of it I believe that I live my life accordingly as SACRIFICE for the welfare  and greater good of others but not at all times. I also live for myself now that I truly realize what's my true worth.

I was born on Friday evening , full moon on 8th March 1991.

I am the third and middle child in my family. I lived a long and meaningful life per se. My family was not a perfect one. I grew up in a not so fancy and nice and happy household. We were not born rich. My father is a drunk, impatient , abusive and angry man He's dealing his own child issues (now i so get it). My mother was distant because she's working abroad. Because of that  I did not receive that much of love , attention and care growing up. I was neglected. I received abuse in all kinds of forms from the people around me. I was HURT. I became solitary and built my own inner world. Most of the time I was IN my head. The outside world scared me. I became fearful to everything. And I lost my voice to reasons. I was scared showing up real emotions afraid that people judged me. I did not know how to be a human interacting to another human. I became cold and aloof.  I did not know who I was anymore. I was LOST. so DAMN lost.

 

Then one day came, I met darkness and I did not know it existed until I acknowledge it's presence. I had been dodging a friend ALL THIS time. I have been used to befriend the LIGHTER friend and I neglected the other Friend. SO , shadow works begins.. until to this date but the technique is never to fight it . It only needs your love , your attention and your light. So there it is. The integration of light and darkness comes the healing journey. I am still embarking on this wonderful journey and I am excited and thrilled to what is to come to me. I trust the Divine , the God that everything is working out for my highest GOOD. I love you and thank you. And I am sorry for whatever harm I caused in the Past until this point of time or any of my Ancestors or family or relatives. Please forgive me God.

FYI. I am practicing the ancient Hawaiian prayer Ho'oponono. It really helps.

 

Wohoooooooo

More to come please.

I rest my place in you God.

I love you. Thank you


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